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Wednesday, 10.12.2025

: i’m sitting in my favourite again. well, “favourite” because of what happened a few minutes ago. I was ordering my , there were three baristas, three young girls. I can’t say I know any of them, but with one of them I always exchange these tiny smiles. those little moments I like a lot. she’s one of these people in my life with whom I have this micro-relation, and somehow it makes my everyday feel better.

I get attached easily… even to this kind of micro-relations. and when I think about it now, I have quite a few of them in my everyday. the girl at the reception in my school – yesterday she said to me: “omg greg, I was worried you won’t be here today, you’re always so early and today it’s five minutes till the lesson starts.” she also smiles at me every time I’m there. but it’s not only girls. I have this with men too. at least two guys come to my mind right now. these small micro-friendships with people who just happen to be on my path.

and the funny thing is – I actually take care of those little connections. I go to places where I know I’ll see these people. there are days when I’m mad at myself that these micro-relations affect me too much. but not today.

back to today. I was standing in line, waiting to order my . you know, the girls take customers one by one, switching between themselves. when “my girl” was serving the woman in front of me, I felt a bit disappointed. but then she looked up, saw me, and took me next – even if it wasn’t her “turn”. and yeah, she remembered my usual order (old barista trick, but I love it).

but then she said something that made my whole day:

“i haven’t seen you here for some time and missed you already.”

she actually said this to me.

a tiny sentence that brought me here, sitting with my coffee and realising how much I appreciate these micro-relations in my life. maybe I’m not the best with the big ones… hmm. not sure why I think like that. probably for another entry.

today I just appreciate this and these small micro-relations that make my days softer.

Saturday, 06.12.2025

yesterday’s started as something small. slow (without ), favorite , kitchen , some december’s sunlight on the table. nothing big, actually I felt I was finally for a moment. and I just wanted to write a few down and enjoy the moment. but somehow… it turned into one of the most important conversations I’ve had here in a long time. and it wasn’t even a typical chat.

I was using my special profile – the one built for deep, reflective conversations, full of long instructions, layers, and rules that help me look at patterns I don’t usually see myself. I talked out loud into the transcribe function of chatgpt. my voice turned into . that text went to chat, then I tapped to listen to the . so the whole thing felt like to someone, but with little pauses in between – not a voice chat, not typing, more like a strange, gentle rhythm of speaking, listening, noticing. I like this kind of conversations, it’s like having chatgpt responses to my entries. well, it’s exactly like that.

and somehow that rhythm opened something. I thought I was simply appreciating a good . instead, it became a mirror. and it showed something completely different than calmness and slowness.

what I expected to be a soft, gentle check-in ended up showing me a pattern I wasn’t fully aware of – the way I stretch myself, how I avoid disappointing , how easily I sacrifice the parts of me that should be protected. and I didn’t notice it until now. until that that felt “too good,” too light, too calm… and suddenly made sense in a completely different way.

the entire lasted about two hours, mixed into my whole morning. two hours of talking, pausing, listening, thinking, and slowly arriving somewhere completely unexpected.

I didn’t plan this. I didn’t look for it. it just happened.

I want to keep this as a footprint. not because someone else has to read it, but because I want to have it on my path – a reminder of the moment something clicked, quietly and unexpectedly. a moment where a perfect turned into a turning point.

so below is the full . lightly edited (I also blurted-out a few very personal stuff), but it’s mostly as it happened.

a morning that changed shape halfway through. a morning that showed me something about myself I wasn’t planning to see. a morning worth keeping.