: i’ve just come #home.
#christmas is done. not a trip, not really. just #christmas going. driving. staying somewhere that isn’t mine. with my #daughters at my #parents’ place – #christmas eve and the first day. today I drove them to their mom so they can spend the rest of #christmas there.
and now I’m back. #home. thirty minutes in.
I’ve been waiting for this moment for some time. not only for #christmas to end, but for a few things to close at once – #work stuff, personal stuff, obligations that were just sitting there and taking space. #christmas was one of them. now it’s time to move on. finally.
the last few days were hard. being away from #home drains me. sleeping somewhere else drains me. this whole #christmas spectacle drains me. my #parents’ house isn’t my house. I like my rules. my rhythm. my surroundings. I like being #independent. I need that feeling to function. well, in some areas I think.
now there’s finally space. first – #sleep. #rest. getting my strength back.
but I can already feel that some things need to be cleaned up. some #habits, some decisions, some leftovers from the last weeks, maybe even months. I don’t want to just go through my #life. I want to shape it. choose it. live it the way it actually fits me.
so this is where I am. back #home. resting. and getting ready to move again.
