Tag: dreams

Sunday, 28.12.2025

: almost a year ago, an idea showed up in my head. to take an old garage – full of old stuff, dirty, forgotten – and turn it into my own room. a workout room. a small private . mine. for a year, it was just a , and during that year I was slowly doing it. cleaning. throwing things away. fixing. arranging. changing this weird, dirty place into something real.

now I’m thinking about it and I’m proud. five minutes ago I wasn’t. but when I look at the whole , I am. really. it was a very old, very dirty place. and now it’s a room. a workout room. my .

today I went there for the first training. the first one after almost a year of building instead of using. and it was hard. not physically – mentally. this place isn’t finished. not even close. but it’s good enough to start. so I started. six minutes. only six minutes of actual workout. I was there much longer, but the workout itself was six minutes. and that was fine. it was hard. but it was good.

there was a lot of . switching from creating this place to actually using it. from the room. from the . from myself. now it’s late evening and I already know something: I will go there tomorrow. and the day after tomorrow. and the next day too. I won’t say “I hope”. I will use it.

I’ve been waiting for this for so long. and now it’s here. done enough. real. usable. this already came true. now I just need to live inside it. and maybe… let the go. and have fun there. we’ll see.

Koniec

Monday, 27.10.2025

: are such a strange thing. it’s like my head goes totally crazy, living in its own world, going on its own . last night’s dream was exactly like that. I dreamt about some kind of alternative life – living in a different place, a small apartment somewhere in Warsaw, I guess. and it felt so! real!

when I woke up, I didn’t actually know where I was. for a couple of minutes, I was convinced the dream was my real life. like my head refused to come back.

I like dreaming, especially now – after fixing so many things in my life. when there are no hidden fears anymore, when I can actually deal with my own shit. became not only tolerable, but even kind of pleasant. they don’t scare me anymore.

but last night… was an intense experience.

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Koniec

Monday, 24.06.2024

it’s been a while since I last wrote to you, and I guess it’s finally time to tell you what’s been going on. fifteen months ago, I decided to do something completely crazy. I mentioned it before:

well… I started learning to dance.

it was a wild idea, especially for a 38-year-old who had never danced before. the thought felt both thrilling and terrifying. I remember how many people looked at me like I’d lost my mind when I told them about it.

and, you know, from the very beginning, it didn’t go smoothly. it was hard, awkward, sometimes even tragic. there were days when I was completely devastated. every step, every movement required huge amounts of determination and patience. I was learning how to walk, stand, and jump all over again. I fought against decades of bad habits. often, I felt like I ended up in that dance school by mistake.

there were moments when I thought I’d give up — that I’d just go back to my comfortable chair and quit. but despite all the struggle, I didn’t. I kept going, working hard every single day, fighting my limits and weaknesses. my journal was the only witness to what I was going through.

and yesterday, right on my 40th birthday, at dance center – the school that has been putting up with me for months, patiently enduring all my failed attempts – there was a show. it was a special moment I’d been waiting for with both excitement and tension.

I performed in three different groups. each one felt like a milestone on my dance journey. I was full of energy and pride — proud that I’ve come this far, that I was there, dancing. for the first time in my 40 years of life.

it was an amazing adventure — one that’s only just beginning. learning to dance turned out to be not just a challenge, but a passion I want to keep growing.

I also have a short film summarizing these last fifteen months of my life. may it be an inspiration for you — the same way it is for me — to follow your dreams, even the weirdest and most absurd ones.