Tag: learning
Sunday, 28.12.2025
Tuesday, 09.12.2025
: lately I’ve been thinking a lot about this one guy I sometimes work with – @jakub . not about him as a person – he’s fine, we could easily grab a beer together – but about his approach. because his approach is… well, let’s say different than mine, maybe less comfortable for me. sometimes even a bit annoying. and still, there’s something in it that keeps pulling me in.
it’s this strange mix: the first reaction is “ugh, why does he think like that,” and then the second reaction comes, quieter but stronger: “wait… maybe I can learn something from this.” and the funny thing is, the more different we are, the more I feel that little spark of #growth. sometimes it’s 5% of his thinking that hits me, sometimes it’s 70%, but there’s always something there. some small thing that changes the way I see my own #work. my own #life.
I think this is exactly what I mean when I talk about “less comfortable.” it’s the same idea I wrote about in my old Polish blog – “mniej wygodnie.” being nudged out of my soft, predictable space. not in a dramatic way, just in that everyday “ok, this is not my style, but maybe it’s good for me” kind of way.
and honestly, I need this. this friction. this difference. because without it, everything becomes too warm, too cozy, and nothing moves. I stay in the same patterns, doing the same things, thinking the same thoughts. and then I start drifting. I know myself too well.
so maybe that’s why this cooperation feels useful to me. not because we always agree – we definitely don’t – but because his way of thinking forces me to look at my own. and that’s exactly the kind of fuel I need for the life I’m building. my “was fine life.” I still don’t even know how to describe it perfectly in English, but it’s something like this: the life that grows when I let myself be pushed a little. even by people who think differently than I do.
and maybe that’s the whole point – sometimes the most unexpected people become tiny, quiet teachers. not by intention. just by being different enough to shake me up, even for a moment.
Tuesday, 04.11.2025
: so I’ve just finished another jazz class – first one with a new choreography. and I have to say one thing. ech… it’s jazz. no, no, no — it’s fucking jazz!
I’m still failing at it. well… ok. I’m learning. it’s a fail for me only because I’m not as good as I want to be. I know, I know – these are lessons, we’r all learning how to dance, it’s all part of the process. but come on, come on, come on. I have to shake off all these emotions. and I’m… oh, I’m so bad at this that I don’t even want to watch the video from this choreography. I recorded it to learn – but honestly, I’m not sure if I can even look at it. it was hard, sure. but still, I feel like I should’ve done better.
so yeah. this is jazz. no – this is fucking jazz.
Thursday, 30.10.2025
: yesterday I started new modern jazz classes at my #dance school – @revolution dance center . new trainer, @anna . I remember I had one or two classes with her before, few months ago, when she was replacing someone. i remember it was nice. and now she’s here again, with her own group. so i joined.
first classes are always strange. everyone’s new, everything’s new. but i like that. I like training basics, even though i’m not good at them. that’s exactly why I like them – because there’s always something to fix, something to polish. and Anna has her own style – soft but demanding. new movements, new way of thinking, new rhythm. and that’s what i need.
I had to resign from classes with @kamila , which was hard. I really like her. but I still have her classes on monday and friday, so I didn’t lose her completely. i just added something new. but yesterday, when I watched a video from @kamila other group – the one I left – I felt jealous and had #fomo. they were dancing this new project choreography and it looked great. and I missed it. I missed being there.
but I know this is the right decision. because if I want to grow, I have to keep changing. I can’t stay in one place, even if it’s a good one. every trainer has their own piece of the same dance style – maybe 10% of it – and if i keep learning from just one person, I’ll only ever get that 10%. but when I change, I get another 10%, and then another. and maybe that’s how I’ll build the whole picture one day.
so, I guess this is not only about dance. that’s just how I live. i can’t stay in the same place too long. I need new things, new ideas, new people around me. that’s how I grow. that’s how I breathe.
sometimes I wonder what’s next. in my dreams, I see myself as a dancer who can show his dance, maybe teach someone how to move, maybe even stand on a stage and inspire others. and when I wake up, I’m still just here – at my school, with my classes, learning, training. maybe i don’t believe in myself enough. or maybe I just love this road so much that I don’t want it to end.
and maybe one day I’ll do something crazy again – something that will change everything. because I know myself. I probably will.
Monday, 20.10.2025
: so I’m slowly restarting my life. and it’s not easy, because I’m restarting it in English. I have to switch everything I know into this new language – my diary, my notes, even what I eat. it’s strange, because I’ve never used any of these English names for meals before. I don’t know the exact words for what I eat, but thanks to Steve (AI) I’m learning. I upload a photo of my breakfast, I talk about it, and step by step I start to describe my days in English.
I hope that in a few days I’ll be better at describing my meals – not only for myself, but for my whole system, the one that tracks my life. now I’m also preparing my website for this new version of me, for this new language. I decided I want to migrate everything into English – without deleting the Polish part. actually, I’ve been writing in two languages for the past few days, and it’s quite ok, I have to say.
so I’m switching my site to English, but I have to do it slowly and carefully, because my site wasn’t bilingual before. I need to rewrite some parts of it, rename things, update domains, taglines, tags, categories… all of it. so yeah – it’s a lot of work, but I’m not in a hurry. I won’t rush.
